that's okay

Assalamualaikum

and hi everyone its been a year since i forgot my stupid password so i couldnt access to my blog. back to what ive been thinking what to type.

i think i have live my life better for past two months after 'that' incident. I stupidly confess something to someone. to be honest i didnt have any plan on confessing but i think that was the best decision i made in my life. why because i have been reject and i grateful for that because at least i dont live my life 'terhegeh-hegeh' to someone.let just say that i'm not lucky in love. whenever i like someone and try to be better..... you all can guess what happens kan

yang aku maroh sangat why did you treat me so good and you even treating me like your girlfriend when you don't have any feeling for me?! AHWAEYOOOO?! ke aku yang mudah sangat tersentuh hati ini bila orang baik dengan aku :(  well i don't deserve for someone like him. i mean dia tidak lah begitu sempurna dimataku, tapi whenever he arounds me my heart race like crazy haih i wonder why it must be someone like him sigh

also...i think we dont made for each other sebab setiap kali bila kami berdua i feel like stupidly stupid and mesti ada ja something bad (memalukan) happens. i swear i was a cool women whenever i am with anyone or even when im alone i could do everything so much better. tapi bila dengan dia i feel like awkward asf aku rasa ada bad vibe dari aku yang keluar bila dengan dia

last but not least i just want anyone who read this to know and not take a blame on him, he's a good guy i swear he treat me so good. he has a cute smile and my mom like him. i feel lucky enough to know and be friend with someone like him. i pray that he will found someone better than me because he deserve so much better. may Allah let us met someone that already made for us.

btw tajuk tu nothing to do with my feelings its because i was listen to that's okay by D.O kyungsoo while typing this and i was immersed into that song. thankyou

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thanks readers.

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new journey begin

Assalamualaikum

Its been a while since aku busy gila kerja. yes aku dah kerja start 26 feb last year. kerja takda la besaq sangat tapi alhamdulillah aku dapat banyak new experience, ramai kawan and yang paling penting aku dapat sedikit sebanyak tolong family aku.

Ya kalau nak cerita pasal diri sendiri ni banyak sangat. tapi cuma nak bagitahu yang aku tak lah macam orang lain. orang lain sibuk dgn fyp, presentation, test and anything with their studies but aku disini struggle cari duit demi sekelumit kebahagiaan buat family acewah haha.

Dah biasa dah dapat soalan taknak sambung study ke apa semua. nak tu memang nak tapi hati ini berbelah bahagi tu Allah ja yang tahu. kalau nak sambung study aku nak buat PJJ, tapi aku takut tak boleh nak carry. and takut tak boleh nak bahagi masa. yes lah memang sometime kita kena keluar dari zon selesa kan hihi. pastu kalau takmau buat PJJ, aku tak sanggup nak full time study, mesti banyak pakai duit kan. dan aku tak sanggup nak tinggalkan mak sorang dekat rumah :'(

Iye, my mom only had me. my kakak dah kahwin and duduk asing, adik still in asrama. ayah kerja so im the only harapan to her. i can't imagine la.. NO, aku takkan tinggal mak. so niat aku untuk sambung masih tergantung. aku cuma berdoa dan berharap bila rezeki tu dah sampai, Allah akan permudahkan segala yang sulit. (mana la tau kot tempat kerja aku nak sponsor aku study kah kah! mimpi!)

btw walaupun aku dah kerja aku still nak kejaq satu satunya cita cita aku :') aku harap termakbul suatu hari nanti. Aamiin.

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thanks readers.

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